Alive.

Alive i suppose, kicking yeah.

I sit here on my couch i have some homework to due, i need to read a chapter by tomorrow, and another by Friday. don't know how much of that i will get done, i get by, I can bullshit, iv had 4 years of practice. Tired eyes kinda hurt. Have work in 90 minutes wait 89.

I will surely be late, of course. I think i will read some of that chapter soon, maybe after a song or two of guitar hero. Still dont know how to fix life, there is no fix i suppose, i have no fix, to broken, i need one of those out of order sign's so i wont have to bother people.

So I just read some accounting, i kinda skimmed it, but i will remember it when we go over it in class, its just basically recording sales like, i payed 800 dollars for an item, you record sales, and lost of inventory, then you record cost of goods sold, so you know how much you made, Accounting is alot of recording constantly, its boring but its not to bad. i wish i had the class online rather, i dont like going to school, not Ccac that is, there's no heart in it people there seem sad and misreable, im happy im learning, well that's the only class im learning, Well thats not true, i am learning in English Comp 101, my writing skills are getting tested. I like to write i wish i could write stories like other's i know and entertain, its a good feeling i bet, to have somone read your content and enjoy, it or learn from it.

I Have work now in 42 minutes, i think i might go in on time rather, and try to make myself better, i want to join a gym, somewhere and work out once a week just to get into better shape, i dont want huge muscle i want to be just have less body fat, dont we all i suppose.

I write in circle's all the time but i understand it, and that's all this is for is me. and of course whom ever wants to read which is only me, an i think allie has read it because she posted on joe's blog which i follow so im sure's she's found it, im not stupid i know how she's writes. Or maybe she is respecting my privacy, or whatever value you would like to call it, the internet net is never private, there is so many ways in. I like to think i know a good bit about computers, but i dont, i mean i know more then common person, but im no genious, i can help you do some stuff, but i really dont know all there is to knoww.

I wonder what Joe is doing, hes away, hes good to talk to keep's , me up, i think we do that for eachother, call eachother when needed for an ear, or someone to ramble at, and we both need eachother, well we dont need eachother, just that someone and Joe's that someone i don tknow how i am to him, but it doesnt matter. Friends are friends. Some friends are temprary, and they think they are you friends but your just putting up with their shit. Hopefully that friend im speaking of will get his head out of his and do something, rather then saying how he find this, or no one will help him. Starts with a Big T, <--that's him but plus two letters. I guess im not really being subliminal enough but I honeslty dont care.

I talk to my self alot, because thats how you get the best answer's, really and then, you can get the wrong answer's, Really. You can. You can tell your self to do the dumbest shit in the world, and most likely you will believe your self. If this was not the case the world would be a better place, if we would listen to some things that we tell our self. Self esteem has alot to play in that, and i dont want to get in that.

We can all relate somehow no matter what it is, may it be we all hate work, or we all are just unhappy with our point in life, or maybe we dont know what we want, but we can do it together right?

I dont like people as a whole, but there are many out there who believe in good, and have morals. then you have some who have none, either raised that way, or adapted to whoever they are. You dont learn everything from your parents a person is a product of everyone around them. Everyone takes part in raising a person, because you are exposed to such in influx of shit, it creats the fucked up thing we call human. the world, the weather, it changes people, it changes them for good, not just for a while. Every little choice in life, changes things, Regretting should nto exist, because it is already done, regrett is just a type of pondering that is unneeded, i mean ok, so say i make a choice to do something. it's done, yes you can change it, but saying fuck i shouldent of done that and shoot your self in the foot, just does you wrong. live life without regret. Then you can live i think.

"Its only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything. "

If you have nothing to lose you can do anything right? I kind of agree, you are free do whatever you want anytime, any place anywhere but there are consequences that wiegh in, on any choice. You have to choose no one else.

The blue or the Red? Y/N?

Which one do you choose? I choose the REd one GO!

I want to live, but i dont know how, i have been in a house all my life going to school, playing petty games in the yard with friends, then you get to be an adult. Then your working all your life.

I had a recent Conversation and a problem with my other half a bit ago.

We both want kids, but the thing is when. I dont want kidns until im alteast 25 or older, and she wants the same age, but guess what she is 4 years older, so her 25 is my 21, and that is just going to happen. Maybe we can come to an agreement. I think children are the middle of your life thing, and if you expect to die at 50 you wont live a great life, you have to not think of when, just think of now, she wants to be a mother, she needs to explore before she can take care of another life, I will do that for her. I will help.

I will make sure she see's the world, we can do it together, anyone can come, but i will see the world. I honestly dont care who reads this because if they read it maybe they will understand or maybe they will be like that kid is wacky and dreams to much. Honeslty I do not give a fuck of what anyone thinks. You can read anything you want, you can speak, say see, do whatever.

Fuck if i care right?

So many words to type and not enough time in life to do it. I can type for hours, and and hours about nothing. And get a few points across int he process.

School agian Go!

I want to go to college, well i am in coolege, or baby college i like to call it. I registered for summer classes, but i dont know if i want to take them I am in no rush to get school done, i have my whole lief to do so, why am i going to rush to get to that 9-5 job and be stuck, i want to explore and go to school but i am in no hurry i think i will constantly take school for a couple years, Its an experiance to learn from. Socially, and otherwise.

I do not want to go to work.
All work and some play, makes me a dull boy, well no play really.

I will play a game of halo and bid the internet of my laptop bye for a while..

Cheers Internet.
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