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I am Jack's wondering Mind.

Without me, i would lack of.


My body is here, in the present, but my mind is flying, what do i want, i really really really do not know, there are so many idea's flying through my head, its almost unbearable. I Don't know where to start, if i could do anything right now, it would be????? I don't know its driving me crazy, i used to think i know, well i never knew i tried to make myself know. Really im lost, and floating, 18 year's old no line to follow. After high school i fell in, i convinced myself i wanted to go to college, with some help of people, school, and everything.

I am so lost right now i cant not type pages like i usually can, its actually begining to annoy me. GAHHHH RAGE.

I like accounting but i don't, a mechanic kinda sparks my interest i would love to learn about cars, they fascinate me, i need structure, and i want to get in shape, im also thinking about the service, but that would piss to many people off, i think i could do it, just a little forced effort, and i could do it, come out and do what i want assuming i live, if i do anything i would want the national gaurd, hopefully stay in the us, or mabybe not travel the world? I really dont know, im so lost Blog, i need answers, but i know im the only one who can do that, i let small thing's bother me and prevent me going through with things, but sometimes that's good, because some are bad idea's, so i really dont know what i want to do, at all, i relaly dont im searching soon i hope i will know, i want to be sure of something absouoltly sure, i cant even type right now, there is no reason or thing i will gain from bitching about being depressed, or tired, or how i hate people? Who will feel better no one because it never goes away, i have to cope, life is about coping, and accepting, its time for me to start, i hope to get my license soon, first goal, also figure out what im doing in life, i need to pass this semester and figure out what i want to do. gotta see what will conflict and stuff, you know. Ill figure it out, just letting my blog know, which i know Allie will read it and if she doesn't she cant get offended that i didn't trust her, now can she? because if you read it i was right, i hope im not right.

Goodbye computer, i will go do something else, peace.